Substance

by Joshua Preston

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credits

released 24 June 2014

Executive Producers: Joshua Preston and Jiggawattz
All songs written by Joshua Preston
Featured artists wrote their own lyrics
All songs engineered and mixed by Jiggawattz
"It Was Beautiful" recorded by King Sirhc at Ink Lab
JM Lace and Dove recorded by Joshua Preston at Ink Lab
Mastered by Brian "Big Bass" Gardner at Bernie Grundman Mastering, Hollywood, CA
Art Design and Art Direction by Michael Gardner for Grind Creative
For booking information contact us via email at blotterink@gmail.com
© 2014 Blotter Ink Entertainment

"il mercenario"
produced by Jiggawattz

"gold and silver" featuring Dove
produced by ante
Additional production by Jiggawattz

"atlas"
produced by Jiggawattz

"fader"
produced by ante
Additional Production by Jiggawattz

"memories"
produced by troy k
Additional Production by Jiggawattz

"the weighting game" featuring louis logic
produced by j.j. brown

"it was beautiful"
produced by troy k.
Additional Production by Jiggawattz

"if only for one night"
produced by Jiggawattz

"requiem"
produced by Jiggawattz

"sandrevan"
produced by Jiggawattz

"pages" featuring Darth Tone and Walker The Adikt
produced by Jiggawattz

"substance" featuring Hotsteez and Goonie Wolfe
produced by Jiggawattz

"let em know" featuring Apprentice
produced by Jiggawattz

"missing you(suffocate)" featuring JM Lace
produced by Michael "Seven" Summers
Additional Production by Jiggawattz

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Track Name: il Mercenario
{Verse}
High noon, inside a saloon, with his weapon hidden.
Keep it if they try creepin as he wet his whistle.
In the west sierras, on this expedition.
Killing everybody, wanted dead or living.
Unforgiven, trigger finger calluses.
Cuz his gang bang louder than Metallica
with calibers. Do dirt, then they gone in a cloud of dust.(distant horse steps)
Only made moves in the shroud of dusk.
Nostalgic of the days in his past.
as he, stares deeper at the drank in his glass,
he sees, memories that he made with his family
That he hasn't seen since the tragedy...
They pulled back and squeezed at his Father's head.
Left his Mama dead, now all that's left
Is this plot for revenge, where he takes their lives.
Blood paints the skies - been waiting his whole life to

{Hook}
Take a ride on the wild wild west side.
Where we do drive bys with our sets high.
With tech n9nEs, shotties, revolvers,
Anything you want, man, we got it on the west side.
Huh? What? This that west side.
Get prices better than best buy.
And we get it. From la to ny.
Til I die its that mufuckin Westside

{Verse}
Hopped out the bar into 500 horses, (horse fx/car fx)
The doors lift, had to kill a foreigner for this...
Watching for law enforcement informants
reporting to courts to award the reward for his
capture.
Get ten mill in untaxed cash if you catch him...
GOD DAMN!
But the fugitive is elusive as truth is.
Moving with the wind, looming in silhouettes.
Lit a cigarette as the sun goes down.
Just arrived at the last ones' locale...
blew the smOke out, and he knows now(blow smOke out)
For this showdown, he's left a couple ghost towns. (wind sfx?)
The face haunts him to this day.
Can't wait to place shots into his brain.
Tie em up, put him on the rail road and wait for the train(train sfx)
Then he jumped out the ride and he exclaimed!

{Hook}
Take a ride on the wild wild west side.
Where we do drive bys with our sets high.
With tech n9nEs, shotties, revolvers,
Anything you want, man, we got it on the west side.
Huh? What? This that west side.
Get prices better than best buy.
And we get it. From la to ny.
Til I die its that mufuckin Westside

{Verse}
No response, so he locked and he loaded.(lock and load sfx)
Started approaching towards the abode, when(stepping sfx)
he got to the door, noticed it was open.
Slowly strolled in...(creak sfx)
Then a voice said,
"I've been expecting you, since your Ma and Pap
Heard so much about you, all across the land!
Killing all them bands of true outlaws.
Such a rarity, heard you shoot southpaw!
Now draw!" (gunshot fx)
Shot the kid in his chest.
Launched him back on the porch, hit the deck.
Blood poured thru his vest, as the floor whipped his neck.
(spur sfx)Heard spurs clanging, seen the man emerge from the black.
It was that face - it took his last strength
Hand raised the strap and shot the man's face... (gunshot fx)
That's fate...the kid passed away
But if you read the epitaph they placed on his grave, it says...

{Hook}
Take a ride on the wild wild west side.
Where we do drive bys with our sets high.
With tech n9nEs, shotties, revolvers,
Anything you want, man, we got it on the west side.
Huh? What? This that west side.
Get prices better than best buy.
And we get it. From la to ny.
Til I die its that mufuckin Westside
Track Name: Fader
me, myself, and I got more soul than de la,
cuz I'm dead, yet I somehow stay live.
Run it like I'm being chased by k-9s,
You shake like bass lines and break like daylight
make the cake slice, hoe I need my piece
I'm a great white, arose like shark teeth.
Can't control me remotely with RCs
let my bars breathe, set the art free.
at ya neck like guitar strings,
lard like I'm farley, gone off the comics
rock it like launches, hopped up on blotches
of blotter and splotches of water that's causing the nausea.
raw like the slaughter, house, with no condoms.
Put it together, better than collages.
Posted like a comment,
tighter than a convent,
pilot like pontius
I'm flying on a comet.

Burn life into vapor.
So dwn, but turned up like a fader. //call me the anchor
Dope house, I serve up the acres //to ya neighbors.
So loud, turning up like a fader.

Nerdy by nature, revenge of the fat kid
With glasses, a big ass, lisp and no fans.
But yall can't even admit you so wack.
ridin each others dick like Broke Back.
I be off of these blots like a Rorschact
Mappin this plot like a floor plan.
Get it in like a porn channel.
This just the foreshadow.
I bust like an orgasm.
So go head and try me buddy.
Cuz I got more verses than bible studies so Tithe ya money
Ply the putty into my income stream.
Life is of dreams, I'm nicotine.
Triple beam, worth my weight in gold.
Rock like Rakim til I'm paid in full.
Peace to pioneers that done came before.
Who taught me that it shines after rain and snow.
But it's time I....

Words are life on the paper.
So down, but turned up like a fader
Dope house, serve up the acres.
So loud, but turning up like a fader.

(Bridge)
In the cloud like I'm online.
Walk skies.
Mach Five.
Welcome to the dark side

Each day see tracers, how my brain works.
I'm Xavier multiplied by Vader.
Gamma ray burst. Inhaling my vapors.
Cross me and get nailed like saviors.
Say ya prayers. Act of Contrition.
Raping your mass like the Catholic Religion.
In the Vatican, hittin Dope with the Pope.
And Jesus blowing smOke with the Holy Ghost in his robe.
Stained glass windows indigo,
Pure as the Christmas snow
Children throw.
If only it all could be so simple though
But innocence is lost when the missiles take off like jigolos.
You think this life a scripted show?
And something supernatural is in control?
Shit. Don't you know see money IS control.
Cuz everybody I know got to get this doe
Track Name: Atlas
Chanting in Latin while drafting this canvas.
Schematics of Atlantis, the Atlantic, and Nevada.
[from] African mountains, Atlanta to Athens.
I'm mapping this planet, my back as the Axis.
Grasping on gravity, matter and atoms, even
Magnetic fields are at my command.
crash and there's land. [Then eye]
Bask in the sand.
Keys to Reality. Mastered the plan.
Got the world in my hand.
Know which circuits to hack.
I'm a surgeon with math.
Make your surfaces crack.
Make your currency crash.
I lurk in the gallows,
I'm perched in the valleys.
In dirt with the flowers.
In circles of power...
Surf with Poseidon on a tidal wave,
Time and space collapse
Simultaneously, divine, got the

{Hook}
Weight of the world on my back
Atlas
Good any place that I'm at/on the map
Atlas
Shrugging my shoulders on hoes.
Atlas
Bout to take over the globe
Atlas{2x}

Multiverse.
Sculpt the Earth via Vulcan's works,
Ultra whirlwinds, and molten currents pulsing below the surface...
Oceans swirling...
Hurricanes circulate, coasts submerged like
Aquarium reefs,
no air you can breathe.
No where you can flee...
se la vie...
From Paris to Greece,
thru American streets,
and the Arabic seas...
Chaos breeds.
Pulling the past from the future
Catastrophes, doom, and
disasters are looming...
Brooding as soon as the moon lit,
Influencing humans to lose it.
True myth, look how the stars and skies
Prophesize, all these signs predate the dawn of life...
Titan, oozing primordial
Roots are immortal, come thru my time portal...

{Hook}
Weight of the world on my back
Atlas
Good any place that I'm at/on the map
Atlas
Shrugging my shoulders on hoes.
Atlas
Bout to take over the globe
Atlas{2x}
Track Name: Gold and Silver (feat. Dove)
I probably die in the studio, tryin to shine like jewelry stores.
So when I go and death consoles me, play this at my Funeral.
No telling what the future holds (holds)
So I treat life as if its beautiful (full)
Though its not, most the time, try to keep an open mind
But broken promises have honestly left my emotions blind.
So I grind, I'm a father, tho I'm on my own
It hurts when i gotta tell my daughter that her mama gone....
And i don't know why I miss her presence
Ever since she left I just been feelin disconnected
Lost in the purple haze, feelin like jimi Hendrix,
Introspective, tryin not to kill myself with
The stress and the pressure, of being a single parent.
I think I need a therapist, at least some air to vent.
I'm barreling, downward, spiraling.
Inquiring the difference with this life and death. Cuz

Hook
I've been traveling a long, long road
There's ups and downs in every river that I go
but I was born to be an all star, shining the light through my soul
I'm a build my crown made out of silver and gold

Sick of saying, "just wait for the new shit!
When I get it done you'll get it exclusive!"
Years passed I still hear that answer.
When people ask me, "yo man, you still rappin?"
I say, "yeah, but the passion is lacking.
Still caught up with finances I'm stackin.
Other than that, I'm just maxing, relaxing,
Raising my family with no plan of action."
Feeling like I'll never be shit.
Slavin over sheets writ like pyramids in Egypt.
But no one ever hears it, I'd die to reach an audience
And if I dont soon I might as well just call it quits.
Gotta live on top of cliffs, beyond the limits, off the grid.
In solitude with monuments for accomplishing the impossible.
Still the longest roads ahead, stalkin on the edge.
Lost again, but one day it'll all make sense, cuz

Hook
I've been traveling a long, long road
There's ups and downs in every river that I go
but I was born to be an all star, shining the light through my soul
I'm a build my crown made out of silver and gold

Play the game dont let the game play you...
Life a never ending story, I'm Atreyou.
Gotta pay dues til the day you break through.
And no matter what you may do, stay true.
I can only hope that
You feel me like emotions when you going thru a close death.
And lately, I spend more than eYe gross, net
But fuck being broke, I'm a get it like GO FETCH!
Got a gold mine, inside my own mind,
But Will I be known by the time that I'm gone, huh?
Hah. Odds say it'll never happen.
But this my legacy and best believe its everlasting,
Legendary classic. what it symbolizes,
Is my life and everything that lives inside it.
make films with my scripts, and when I die..
You could say these lines were the silver lining...

Hook
I've been traveling a long, long road
There's ups and downs in every river that I go
but I was born to be an all star, shining the light through my soul
I'm a build my crown made out of silver and gold
Track Name: Memories
Medicines that are chemically based,
Taken over time that's when memories fade
Lookin at my fam, I'm forgetting their names
It's getting so bad I can't remember their faces
(inhale, exhale) every breath that i take is
Edging me closer to the heavenly gates
Mind melting away, my Recollection is vague
So when they're fresh in my brain I just sit and let the memories paint
Over treble and bass...
Then get erased

{Verse One}

These days be turning into late fees
I can't sleep, and you wonder why I chase dreams?
Since age 3 been collecting these memories,
Examining tendencies of these friends I keep...
See, love is a liability.
It'll leave you blind to the imagery.
Feels like the crime of the century,
Was filmed on screen, in ya mind and ya memory.
That is, when you finally get to see,
How everybody treats you behind the scenes.
But now, I see designs that are meant for me,
Lines with the symmetry like I'm high off of LSD
Mentally, somethin wrong with my chemistry.
Yet I keep it one hunnid like a centipede.
Life lemon squeezed. made substance.
Switch identities. Didn't change nothin.

{Verse 2}
Fuck federal cases, the threat of detainment
Special agent investigations and the sentence they gave me.
On papers I was steadily cakin
While makin bread like I'm bakin and gettin bent like the matrix
My relatives ain't shit, ain't been the same since
The lies all left and the truth came in.
Rain drips on the pane as I gaze in,
Reflecting on this pain in my brains sphere.
It's like my whole life they just rolled dice.
All of these fabrications they all co-signed.
Brother turned officer, all I felt was betrayed
Him and his wife had my baby mama three ways.
For a week straight, and six years later.
The truth came out. While eating at the table.
Why I say fuck em, I'm a have plenty cheese.
Making more hits than the Genovese.

{Verse 3}
Ever feel your family plotting on you?
animated, actin faker than a cartoon?
It's like, you never see em out they costume.
Charade moves to keep you in the dark room.
A monsoon rain, came from my eyes.
When I realized, their blood wasn't mine.
Everything I was ever told was a lie.
No wonder I got in the game with drugs to buy.
So I walk this road, all alone, on my own.
Feeling like I'm breaking down, callin it the fall of Rome.
At least the thoughts provoked are chronicled
If songs I wrote were articles I'm Fuckin wit the Boston Globe.
Whoa, life is like a carnival.
Try to go with the flow like a garden hose.
smOke carcinogenics, on hallucinogen trips.
Trying to find myself from within, shit...
Track Name: It Was Beautiful
as I sit back, sippin on this nyquill
tryna find a way to pay this fckn light bill.
my mind reels, thinkin bout life's ills.
Thinkin bout us...they say time heals...
All wounds, but still I feel my hearts gloom.
Takin rides to the side of that dark moon.
I feel drawn to it, like a cartoon.
But when I heard the truth, I felt a harpoon.
Shoot thru my chest, sharp as a shark tooth.
The scar's huge, astronomical.
Sorry we argued, and fought in front of our kids.
Everything we did was teach em how to NOT live.
I wish I could be a better role model.
But all I know is gettin dope sold, mama.
And this rap shit, with practice, who knows, right?
Dreams to get cream that last for life.

Hook
we had a life together, it was beautiful
All those nights. Remember? It was beautiful.
In your third trimester, you were beautiful.
You were mine...and it was beautiful.
We had a life together, it was beautiful
All those nights. Remember? It was beautiful.
got a child together, and she beautiful
Like a musical...it was beautiful.

And I know I let myself go...
But when you first said yes I swear hell froze.
Couldn't wait to show you off on my arm.
Met in the snow, next to a shopping cart.
Who thought it'd fall apart when we came together?
I pledged to be there for any change of weather.
Whether rain, for better or worse.
I swear we was married, never went to a church.
Or made it legal, but we don't like paperwork.
I did my best to make it work.....
But I became alert to the game you was running.
Something going on but you angry at nothing...
Or was it how everytime I knew what you was up to?
All's fair in love and war...no Sun Tzu.
We were so much more than a couple...
We had a family...or was it fantasy that...

Hook
we had a life together, it was beautiful
All those nights. Remember? It was beautiful.
In your third trimester, you were beautiful.
You were mine...and it was beautiful.
We had a life together, it was beautiful
All those nights. Remember? It was beautiful.
got a child together, and she beautiful
Like a musical...it was beautiful.

As I listen to the sample play.
I can't figure out exactly what I have to say...
Except, that you're great...greater than cassius clay.
Damn shame that you don't see it that way...
Top notch female - you the definition.
Remember you said you had a premonition, where
You dreamt of us living, said you seen my face...
Before you seen my face, I guess that dream was fate...but...
{Bridge}
Baby did you ever love me?
All those times you said you love me?
More I think, the more it cuts deep...
I couldn't fix a junkie...but
Baby did you ever love me,
All those times you said you love me?
Did you even mean it once?
Or were you too deep in drugs to know that

Hook
we had a life together, it was beautiful
All those nights. Remember? It was beautiful.
In your third trimester, you were beautiful.
You were mine...and it was beautiful.
We had a life together, it was beautiful
All those nights. Remember? It was beautiful.
got a child together, and she beautiful
Like a musical...it was beautiful.
Track Name: If Only For One Night
(Verse)
Stays on his mind, even when it wanders,
Kills him inside, not knowing if he's on hers.
And his heart hurts from previous partners.
Only time he lets his guard down is in his artwork.
And he wants her, knowing she the wrong type.
Like the spots right, but its the wrong time.
Knots inside his gut, emotion stays hogtied,
Still waiting for that perfect night when the stars align.
Knowing it'll never come, so he's getting hella drunk,
floating off the chemicals, etc, etc
Thinking of her constantly, seeping thru his thoughts and dreams,
Keeping how his body fiends for her a secret, locked in re-
cesses, of his mind - with the depression.
And the deep impressions she left inside his dimension.
Yet...He's just searching for that trust, right?
Even if it gone be "only for one night"

(Hook)
If only for one night
Me n u could make love til the sun rise
Let's get so high that we touch skies/god
Memories that last for a life time
Cuz baby, we only got one night
Don't rush it, gotta make it just right
Your design, is, one of a kind, so
Be mine, if only for one night.

(Verse)
Developed a connection, you could say a friendship
Permanently marked his mind, didn't need a felt tip
Fell, tripped, felt like his shell melted, gelled with
Her cells, spell bound by her velvet
Touch...and the rush that he gets from it
Pumpin adrenaline as if the feds coming...
Still questioning whether its genuine
Or if she just like the rest of them Jezebells...
Swearing that she different, tho.
She the only person that ain't out to get his doe.
And in his mental, he wanna get physical,
But don't wanna kill what they have, so he isn't sure...
Look at the integers, positives and negatives,
Past year been a blur, foggiest of memories...
And on his messages she tellin him she love him, right?
He just hope it won't be "only for one night..."

(Hook)
If only for one night
Me n u could make love til the sun rise
Let's get so high that we touch skies/god
Memories that last for a life time
Cuz baby, we only got one night
Don't rush it, gotta make it just right
Your design, is, one of a kind, so
Be mine, if only for one night

(Verse)
But he knows people are deceitful.

And things don't work out with those you keep close.
All the sweet quotes whispered in her ear lobes.
Had so many shots with her, time for him to reload.
Let the ink flow, one night the sun set at dusk.

And her eyes were, shining like nebulae.

She take him, higher than any drug
And he hates it - writing her questions, like -
"You love me? Can I trust you?
Cuz I'm subdued by the way your tongue move.
plus my love grew for you like a mushroom.
I'm consumed by your glow like a full moon"
They kissed closely, then stripped clothing,
Became one for this moment - exploded…
But he know that it wasn't right...
They were in love, but "only for one night..."

(Hook)
If only for one night
Me n u could make love til the sun rise
Let's get so high that we touch skies/god
Memories that last for a life time
Cuz baby, we only got one night
Don't rush it, gotta make it just right
Your design, is, one of a kind, so
Be mine, if only for one night
Track Name: Substance (feat. Hotsteez and Goonie Wolfe)
Produced by Jiggawattz
Mixed by Jiggawattz
Mastered by Brian "Big Bass" Gardner at Bernie Grundman Mastering Hollywood, CA